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with you standing next to me
But when your away,i dont know what i'd do if you left me lonely
because honestly
your my one and only
I think about you every second of the day
Your always on my mind
and never close to away
Im not perfect
and i dont know why you chose me
There are so many girls that you can lift off there feet
Im not very pretty and im not very smart
Im so lucky that your the one holding my heart
I miss you when your gone
I miss you through the day
Damnit I miss you when your ten feat away
How many times do I have to tell you
How many times do I have to say
I fall more in love with you each and everyday
YOUR MY WHOLE HEART
I have no dought in a second

♥ Saturday, November 7, 2009

Kawaii-Ness ♥

WHY I HAVE THIS KIND OF FATHER!
I came from a very BU XIN FU family.......
My family use to be rich but No more Happy Family since yr 1989 ............
Father start to mix around with all his Bad friends, he start to play "Gu Piao" and very fast he loose all his money + borrow money from "Ah Long"
Remeber that time Ah Boy still inside mummy tummy, father wanted to hide from those "Ah Long" he went to grandma house & stay.... He so selfish, he totally dun care abt his 2 daugther & his pregnant wife.
Those "Ah Long" really came, they said if dun wan return Money they will burn our house down. ..... This image till now i still can remember very clearly, i will never forget ...........NEVER!
So end up we sold our house away , mummy take the cash they earn to pay those debts........ They apply for BTO flat, so we stay gramdpa house for 2yrs!
Yr 2006 ,When we move in to the house, we got no money for reno, so mummy borrow money from 1 of our relative, very nice of her for borrowing us 10k plus, mummy return her bit by bit per month............ it took mummy yrs to clears this huge debts. ...
But my father didnt change....... , starting b cos of my brother he will go look for job but on and off he didnt work!
Starting no matter wat he will find money to give mummy but went we grow older he didnt, he still mix with those bad ppl do bad things.............. outside got alot of gals, cheap ppl money borrow money from "Ah Long" AGAIN.... Cheap his daughter money........... this time round he didnt hide at grandma place , he went NUH to hide......... he told the doctor that he got mental problems but actually he dun have ........... ! so everytime when he didnt go home and we find out that he go NUH we will know somethings going to happen AGAIN..........He being charged to jailed for 1 yr plus due to cheating ppl money, we thought he will change BUT..
Yes!!! He own ppl money again, ..."Ah Long" Lock our door, spray paint........
Mummy decide to divorce with him.... She lolerate for soooo long then make this decision bcos we all already grow up, that time we were still young so she dun wan divorce...........!
As usual they sell away the house, the cash that earn mummy use it to return to the relative that borrow us money..........
Haiz! thought this time round we can totally no contact with father, no need to stay we him anymore but end up no choice mummy CPF dun hav money have to use father CPF to buy house , which means we are going to stay together AGAIN....
He have no been working for yrs, mi and Da Jie on & Off got give him money cos no matter wat he is still our father...... He dun work never mind, i dun mind give him money , as long as he dun do bad things & borrow money again can liao......
Once they divorced, 4 mths later he married with a china lady.......
The china lady waiting for father to get her PR but too bad, he not working so there is no way he can get her PR..... so for 1 yr liao the china lady still at China..
He didnt go home sleep for mths, but he sometime got come back to wash his clothes.............
Few diff ppl came to look for him, said he own them money.........
haiz!........... as usual he hide in NUH!
Normally if not very serious he will hide at home but if hospital that means very serious.......
He got no money to eat & no place to sleep cos nobody is going to give him money again so hospital is his best choice!
Few days ago recieved Bills from NUH, Alexandra hospital and IMH........ Cant believe man....... went can all this stop.....!
FROM YR 1989 ------- now YR2009................ 20yrs liao & its stil not ended lo......, WTF!!!
Im going to leave this F**king father...
Im going to change my contact once i move in to my new house..........
Im not going to let him find mi............

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